last posted - 08/01/2022 | last updated: 08/03/2022|

@z (r:superfx) ty sm for your well wishes for my close friend. mind you, this is a diff friend from who I previously mentioned a week or so before. That friend is doin fine n well now, but an out of town friend is in dire straits atm so hopefully they bounce back soon. gna help em as much as I can for the time being as well.

hope ur night was ballin btw!! style on every1 lookin fine! lmaoo

@z (r:superfx) yee, hope ya dig! always love givin' industrial recs

@z (t:journal) obtw i checked out that newer spotify link u posted. sick sounding! if u like industrial like that, check out Anarchy by KMFDM or War by Wumpscut. Lotta those cloudrap/emo trap fools been hittin up noisier stuff these days, another guy that hits sounds like that is Nascar Aloe, or some others i dig are Lil Ugly Mane, JPEGmafia, Machinegirl, Meishi smile, all hittin those kinda harsh industrial vibes.

labelled - (t:journal) [fdbk>ghostemane]

@z (r:superfx) aww z ur always so sweet! im glad yall dig my silly machinations ^^; likewise on yr week n stay blessed, z! godspeed.

@z (r:2022) hi drunk, i'm stoned

> @z: clik 4 p.s. ~!!!!~!!!!! (u can also hover over blcktxt 2 see p.s. in web or gem) [dated 7-30-22]

@z (r:superfx) I hope your saturday is goin much better! BTW, R. Stevie Moore is lit asf, and Ariel pink's music is cool it's j too bad for him tho 😬 listenin to that turnover track rn too. v new wavey.

@z/em (r:2022/journal) I hope u both are doin' alright n have a better time soon! got a friend goin thru sum struggles rn so seein yall pushin thru in yr journals rly makes me feel for yall. many hearts, n tokes, if it helps any.

@z (r:journal) hope u stunted on ur coworkers w ur tie dye swagger! f$@% them h@#$!!

@z (r:superfx) nahhh reuniting a pet w their loved one at 1am is p lit G, anyone that can do that gotta be fun to party with lmaoo that's the midas touch right there!

@z (r:superfx) you're all good dw! tysm btw, it was a test run but next time'll be better lol, and glad your weekend was fun too. :) you seem like a ball to hang with, life of the party!

@z (r:superfx) tysm z! you too hope u did more fun stuff! I made 50 bucks at a gig for an hr set, so cant complain yk B^))

@z (r:superfx) next time!!!! im feelin lit rn tho lmaooo

@z (r:superfx) both!!!!!

@z (r:2022) you're late night killin it rn!!

@z (r:superfx) yr so kind! end of the day, yall were the inspiration, cuz the fact yall used a passing notes kinda system rly grabbed me.

@z (r:journal) foooo you ain't gotta gimme sh@$ go for it!! only reason I did it this way is cause I saw yall had message folders! so i thought hmm.. maybe i can make a page of this lol

@z (r:superfx) Shucks, y'all are so kind. I figured I needed to make sure every1 can see the msg i tag em in as easy as possible.

p.s. that song you linked is a heavy jam, goes hard. on that note, the memories we reminisce on can be strong. yet, time moves on, and we gotta love what's in front of us rn n hold those past moments close.

@z (r:superfx) tried /.\

@z (r:superfx#7-10) Lmao that last bit cracked me up, needed that. I've noticed those plates before too, but never realized til now. Anywho, TYSM for your warm regards!

I felt reserved about even posting of it, but ultimately it's been cathartic and releases a lot of the sorrow I feel from it. TY, also, over the EP! Those are beats i've had, ngl, since 2014 smfh i'm just glad to be rid of 'em. If you checked it out, hope you enjoyed! Also, glad it was one of the last things my doge got to hear before peacin' out. At least she was with family.

@z (r:2022) wise words, seems applicable to a lot of people troubled by life, including myself. As an aside, i don't get that license plate. sounds funny tho lol

@z (r^3:superfx) music is my main outlet! I also kick it w ppl when I can, try and interact meaningfully at parties n gigs or wherever, so I def dig that (like this interaction!). I oughta hit up more physical activity tbh that def helps a lot w/ taking the edge off. mostly i take part in sum 420 to chill @_@

@z (r^2:superfx) def. i'm troubled over some stuff rn too, but gradually getting to it w.o giving up any means of expression. having an outlet helps. do anything that soothes you? seen your "now" btw, gr8 music taste!

@z (re:@superfx) yw! anytime, i saw ur post n it reminded me of diff hangups i've had about myself n ppl around me at diff times. its important to kno to be ez on urself b4 you can do anything 4 any1.

@z (re:07/06/2022) I hope u'll be all good n ur week brightens up! introspection is good but staying indiscriminate w/ life steps at a time helps a lot too. actually i read this article written by nik (mentioned below) j the other day in case it helps somehow

//portal.mozz.us/gemini/nicksphere.ch/2022/07/02/identifying-and-processing-emotions-with-alexithymia/.

it relates to their specific condition, but contains material that's practical overall. keep yr head up, good will always shine, n take it easy don't be so hard on yrself! :)